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Thank you everyone for your comments, all of your words have really helped me!My life has been so busy these past few weeks! Ballroom dancing lessons, rehearsals, sleepovers, essays, etc. It's been very stressful. So, I apologize for not replying, or posting very much.
I have realized lately that I am interested in pursuing a whole bunch of things. I've always let myself believe that I haven't had a very interesting personality, quiet, mean, light-minded, etc. It seemed to me a while ago that I needed to have interests that measured up to someone else's, or interests that everyone else thought was suitable for the kind of person I am. Well, recently I've actually, really grasped that everyone is their own individual. Although you can put yourself in with a category, you really are your own. You have your own thoughts, feelings, and interests, no matter what they are. So, before I graduate, I want to make it a priority to get these things done.
I want to get involved in archery, I don't know why, but I want to. It seems like a very concentrating, peaceful activity. I want to learn German, I have a little German in me, and I've decided that I want to go to Germany. Everyone has always told me that German isn't as beautiful as the other languages, but I think it is, so there you go. I want to paint with acrylic paints more, because I love it, and it's one of the only things I can actually say I'm pretty good at. I want to learn abstract, uncommon words in the dictionary, and use them. I love words, you have a large variety to choose from when you talk to someone. I want to learn more astrology, and astronomy. I know that when someone says 'astrology', you can get freaked out. I'd rather not call it 'astrology', just for that reason. I'm not planning on predicting the future, or reading people's palms. I just believe that there are revolving magnetic pulls constantly when the planets rotate. Which can have an effect on your personality when you're born. So, I'm really sorry if that offends you, that's just what I believe.
Anyway, thank you for reading! I have to go finish stuff. =(

Politics, and Christianity.

I've been thinking a bit about politics today, and I'm pretty sure that I don't know where I stand... at all. I've been thinking about all the pros and cons, abortion, war, etc. I don't even know what I have to say about those anymore. I know that my mom was for Ron Paul on different levels, but I've decided that I'm not going to just 'be for' anyone because my parents are. When I was 10 or 11, I was all caught up in 'politics', or whatever. I thought I actually had an opinion, what I really had was what I was being fed. (Not in offense to you Mom, or Dad) I've realized that I'm getting to the age where I need to start having my own opinions, not sharing them with someone else. I hate all of this political crap. Everyone throwing in your face about what you should want, or what you should do. It doesn't even make sense! I don't want to have a stand, I don't want any of this. I'm neither republican, nor democrat. I don't have any say. I hate it when people make jokes of the opposite party, it's like pretty much displaying their hatred for someone. Did you know that when you try and talk someone out of being a Republican, or Democrat, you're really making that person just hate their opposite party more? It's pointless! And so is holding signs, it's not making a difference. Christianity has really gotten me in a tangle these past few months, I haven't spoken to God in a while. All of this plastic cheese, this 'using God' as a pain reliever has just made me have great portions of hate for the label "Christian". It has made me want to have no part in it. If anything, I would call myself a believer... but so many of the same kind of people have used that too. I'm just so mentally confused. I want God in my life, but I constantly feel like I'm doing something wrong, and therefore, I feel like I don't deserve him at all. The best comfort I have experienced concerning this subject has been from my sister. I said to her "I don't feel like I have a right to be involved with God at all," and she said, "You don't, but that's the good part about God is that he's going to accept you anyway. He's not going to punish you for anything you do, he's just going to allow the result of your sin to take place in your life." I love her so much! But anyway, everything that has to do with any of this has totally mind-boggled me... so I don't know what to do.